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artistic breakthrough

is there anything more liberating than finding your medium? is there anything more liberating than finding your own intention behind a medium?

of course there is

But this is pretty damn good

I am happy I am happy

I am writing

There is a feeling of the type of thing I want to write and when I get the feeling I write it


Before I came to this idea I thought I would maybe just keep focusing on the mediums I enjoy and wait until something happens

The moment I resigned to trusting that something will come to me, my butthole unclenched

And my soul wiggled around and was happy

And now I know

And I’m too shy to tell you what it is but I’m curious about exploring and creating possibilities


Sometimes when I gaze at a thing for a while it begins to speak to me

I’ve been gazing at books and this mysterious thing opened up to me and tells me secrets everyday

The medium that is books.

Maybe I’m obsessed with mediums.

Mediums the kind that tell you things from the other side

I’m more interested in the medium than the message. I want to know what mediums are capable of.

Magazines are capable of pictures and infinite renditions of the same thing. Magazines are beautiful things and must be beautiful things but they also need to endure infinite reincarnations.

Books are far more mysterious and I haven’t nailed down what books are capable of. One thing that novels are capable of: temporal possession of another life which includes the perceptions and feelings and logic of that life.

Music are visceral things. Some people treat music like literature or poetry. But music can exist without the literature and poetry. So that’s not what music is. Literature and poetry are the music video aspect of music. They are dispensable. The most indispensable thing in music is beat. Because stripped down to nothing if you have a drum beat you have music. If you have rhythm with melody you have music. If you only have rhythm you still have music. So you can find the rhythm of words and of course create music that way too. But it’s a visceral thing.

Food. The holiest of arts. The art that nourishes for real. I am just beginning to understand food but I think everyone understands food. You don’t have to be a philosophy major in food to know food. You eat it all the time

Movies are like books but limited. Movies show you things without needing you to imagine. That’s cool too. Show don’t tell. Movies only show.

Tyler something. That Hollywood medium. Somehow I believe him.

He way he sort of scoffs at everyone makes me think he’s real.

Did god answer me today? I feel so free.