getting judged for taste
lately, no one judges what i read or listen to or watch
and to be FULLY FULLY HONEST??
i really like the things i read. i really like the things i watch. i am fully confident about my tastes in these areas.
but when it comes to what i listen to...
well, i don't listen to a lot of music, and when i do it's just the popular stuff that floats into my ears and catches my fancy. and so i am a tad ashamed of what i listen to and i imagine that unless you like exactly what i like, you'd judge me a little bit too.
but i think it's just because i haven't really spent time with music lately. and how can i? i don't have reliable wifi.
JK i'm actually pretty confident about the music i like too lol
i think the more you love what you love the less you need to KNOW if other people think it's cool or not. when you love something deeply, i think you can't help but think it's cool...
but still, it is so nice to not have friends to talk to now.
when i get a new phone, i'll just be like "my phone got stolen, so sorry for the long delay!!!!"
it feels really nice to be absent from everyone, to be in my cocoon, so that i can figure out what i really like without fear of being judged.
of course, i still judge myself but i am practicing not doing so.
and it is much easier practicing this when no one in my environment enforces this behavior.
i feel like i have more i want to say about this cocoon-like experience but...
hmmm...do i?
i almost feel like being alone is the same as standing in front of a great big mirror.