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I want someone to choose me for something

We’re discussing sailors we would take for the Atlantic crossing. Would you take Jan? Yeah probably but he would be tired of us. Runé? No just doesn’t seem that good for some reason. Stefan? Yes. Likely yes even tho he doesn’t seem mechanically savvy bc he seems reliable and would try his best. He could rise to the challenge. Guido? Hard pass. No thank you. Mende? Yes. Henry, yes. Michael, no. Michaels friend, no too grumpy. And we played this game on and on

Almost chosen were mysteriously German (for their mechanical skills and sense of responsibility) with one Portuguese (for sailing experience)

We gave hard passes on the Greek/italian/french

Some Americans and Australians were considered. Mostly for good energy and morale and jokes and silliness (I am of this category)

Few female names were even mentioned.

Mostly all no’s of course.

Then I thought I wonder what I would be chosen for in life.

I think E+T like my conversation topics.

Seb likes the movies I choose. He would also choose me as his overall language ambassador anywhere. (Because I learn languages easily. I can write to the Amazon people in Italian ) he said he would choose me to keep morales high. He would choose me to give him book recommendations.

I think some people would choose me for my insights.

Yeah so that’s the type of person I am I guess.


I’m thinking about how Seb and I are simply incompatible with some people. Like D-nielle & SR & Gdo & El.

they’re the type of people who are so unreliable as to only be compatible with people who do not care about their own time management

They would tell you the night before that they’ll let you know the next day if they’re going to be able to make it to dinner that day and on that day you haven’t heard anything so it is 7pm and you’ve started cooking for yourself and they announce they’re going to show up.

Kind of inconsiderate tbh but they don’t see it that way. They just don’t have that kind of time management empathy that most Germans have

D-Noelle & SR are the same.


Lately I feel so jealous of people with good outfits

Having bought a pair of shoes I feel really happy in, I now wonder how it would feel to be happy in my whole outfit. It’s hard dressing for this kind of heat.

I want to wear something loose and comfortable

Maybe I just want to get out of the heat as well

My hair is always up because otherwise it’s on my neck

But my hair is so nice down

It’s just naturally wavy and mermaid like

Idk I’m just annoyed and vain like that I guess