i'm in a major fucking mood
i'm in a fucking mood and i don't have anything to say actually but what the fuck am i supposed to do? watch tv? read? there is nothing to be fucking done. i wanted to do yoga but i didn't have the strength to do it. i don't want to absorb anything right now i just want to expel. i don't even have the creativity or the imagination to say anything interesting, i don't have any interesting thoughts.
i'm not sure if i'm tired of complaining yet
but guess what i did today?
i put myself to sleep so that i didn't have to be awake
the state of the boat caused me such fucking anxiety i did not want to be conscious
when i woke up the boat project was finished but the day was gone too and now i have insomnia to look forward to
just what the fuck am i supposed to do? i don't have the brain cells or the energy left to think of anything constructive. i can't even channel any of this into art, it's that goddamn uninspiring and that goddamn useless. or maybe i'm just a shit artist with nothing to say.