infinite loop of trying to relax
i thought we were getting out of here to relax but i don't feel relaxed at all about this "vacation"
it feels like an infinite loop of trying to relax
we're sailing to relax from our lives before, and we're backpacking in indonesia to escape from sailing
(the main stress is not having a solar arch, no solar power, no lithium, no watermaker -> things we should've thought about before jumping into our sabbatical but sebastian was too stressed out to plan but kept insisting on it...and i didn't have any interest but thought i'd be a "good sport" about it)
i think there is a pattern here...
i think we keep starting shit, overwhelming ourselves with it, then we run to the next thing thinking it'll be less overwhelming but it is just a huge list of overwhelming things now