i've been pushing myself to the limit.
physically, for the emotiona/spiritual/mental side
no food no sleep
and it feels like euphoria and misery all at the same time, but ultimately euphoria.
but i'm not even doing it on purpose
i just started to follow what my body and mind told me to do
being led by the subconscious
as well as being passively guided by the signs of the universe
everyone's been telling me to do freediving lessons
we freedive off the boat all the time but i never took any lessons
i thought there wouldn't be anything new to learn, that i knew it all, but would just get acquainted with some breathing exercises
but i ended up loving the experience...
it's like a drug
today i went to 13m (i think i could've gone a lot deeper but that's where the marker was, that i was supposed to go to) and it took 1m30s
that calm feeling was amazing
that feeling of being with myself
the ultimate truth
it felt like being one with god.
...