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notes to teenage/childhood self


I’m really proud of myself for continuing to do my Japanese lessons everyday

More than proud I’m like, really happy with the results

It’s not that I’m so good at Japanese now but i know I’m better than if i didn’t do it (I’m learning grammar from a textbook) and it’s interesting, it’s really like I’m learning the logic of the Japanese mind

It’s not the most fun thing to continue doing everyday, I’m going to be honest, but i feel like this is the equivalent of if you love to play soccer and want to have more fun playing soccer so you train yourself in the gym to have better fitness…like it will pay off, for sure, in terms of having fun

And i am really proud of this because i don’t tend to be good at enforcing habits that are not immediately fun

(Which i think is also cool in a way because i tend to do things with a lot of passion)

I really feel good about this.

Really.

Really.
Good.


And i feel really happy that I’m continuing my literary blog-magazine

It is still rather in the blog domain right now i must admit because reviews are the only things i have with like some semi essays but the thing that pushes a blog into a magazine is columns and I’m brainstorming column ideas and i have some

But I’m proud because i have never been able to keep “serious” blogs going before (my literary blog is a fun blog, for sure! But it’s serious in the sense that I’m being super deliberate and trying to deliver high quality content with it)

I’m just really proud of myself for continuing and to think of the long-game.

In the past i might’ve burnt myself out and then threw it away

But now I’m going slow and steady and

It’s really similar to learning Japanese