people who cancel people and books i'm enjoying
i flagged a video on youtube as "spam/misleading content"
i didn't watch it, i just saw the title which said
"The Many Ways F. Scott Fitzgerald Made an Absolute Fool of Himself"
and the thumbnail was a girl looking disapprovingly at a collage of pictures of men, one of which was Fitzgerald, the other Hemingway.
i just think bitches like her don't deserve free speech
WHOA WHOA WHOA
what did i just say?
no i swear she is in the same category of people who cancel people
people who are not good enough to make their own shit so they find problems with other people
and the things that people take umbrage with are so fucking strange
people have a problem with jk rowling's non-LGBTQ-friendliness
but nobody has a problem with her perpetuating the Special Son-myth which exacerbated a generation of Special Snowflake Narcissists who think they're all here to save the world?
(did she invent this? no. but it is the most annoying thing about her because whereas you can clearly UNDERSTAND the non-LGBTQ-friendly thing as an "obvious problem" because it is concisely stated, you cannot see, unless you're smart, how harry potter perpetuates the narcissistic dream of "i was born special and therefore special things will happen to me")
anyway
that girl's complaints about fitzgerald might even be along the lines of what i am saying about jk rowling
but i am also NOT saying we should fucking call jk rowling out and like hate on her
(that thought has crossed my mind but now i am wiser)
i think it's annoying how it's even possible to get famous for "hot takes" and hating on people. what kind of a hostile society do we live in?
maybe what i am doing to her is hostile but i know youtube won't actually like, take her video down lol
youtube let's make a list of "no no words" and if these words appear on a title let's just not show me those ok?
i don't fucking want to hear: "you're doing this wrong" lol and "changed my life" and "old white men" (everyone hating on old white men are not superior to people who hate on black men or women) and "destroyed"
oh god i hate the word destroyed
"person A destroyed person B"
fuck. you.
i am whining a lot again today but i am actually having a relatively good day
i watered the neighbor's plants
filled up the water tank
gonna enjoy some last bits of sunshine
and do yoga indoors
and i read a lot today (that's MOSTLY what i did)
i am enjoying these books a lot you guys
including:
they are all really good
- this side of paradise by fitzgerald [finished] -- amory is my ex bf and i have a tender place in my heart for him ; i believe he is an archetype. but there aren't many like him; there are many who are conceited, yes, but not many who are also talented or intelligent or hardworking (i feel that amory works very hard to be what he finds good, even if his tastes are superficially motivated. he wants to be popular boy at school? so he trained really hard to get good at football...hey, good for him. and how lovely it is to try in life, to want something...)
- rules of attraction by bret easton ellis -- i love the subject matter. so little has been said about this, because university is a new thing for the masses. and the normalization of casual sexual relations is even more new, actually. so far he captures the female voice and mindset very well. that is very impressive for a man. i think that surprisingly numerous men can adopt a female mindset in writing; whereas a lot of female writers turn to either straight up hating on men or turning them into something completely fantastical (like an ultra rich vampire who loves you, you average girl and yes, just you, not the other girls...you)
- agonie des eros by byung-chul han -- he's just making that movie melancholia sound really good so far but he makes a good point too about how you have to have space for others if you want to experience love. is there room to love when you are so busy getting them to validate you? i like his line that in this modern world of endless possibility, somehow love is an impossibility ; i'm going to think if i have made room for others but i definitely feel that when i loved, i just wanted to know all about them. i only cared how they viewed me insofar as wanting them to like me enough so that i can stay in their lives and vicinity. i liked getting to know THEM and it wasn't like "omg same :)" it was like "let me just discover you"
- journey by moonlight by antal szerb -- not very far in but i like the thoughts; like how venice is effectively greece. very funny.
- holzfällen by thomas bernhard -- very very very funny holy shit how can he talk about suicide in such a funny way? he whines so funny...it's the long unending sentences that repeat the same things over and over. what an icon. i consider this one a "night-read" to be enjoyed when the world is dark
am i "playing it safe" by reading tried and true classics?
i don't know
yeah maybe
haha
but i am just disappointed by contemporary writers. like i thought sheila heti was doing something magnificent, but in hindsight nothing she said really sticks as important
jordan castro is stellar though but i've already read the only novel he published.
an update on the author-friending on goodreads... mike kleine accepted my humble request :D
oh he is so cool
seeing him on my dashboard is lovely