the climax of friendship
i was SO EXCITED TO MAKE A NEW FRIEND at first but now it's almost like incomplete-able sex -- there is no way to satisfy the tingling feeling i initially and still often feel at having made a new friend. like "what now?"
what is the climax feeling that you can experience with a person? [maybe we've already experienced it?...]
but i feel that maybe her bf is feeling more comfortable with us (me and s), or with me, because he said before that he is highly protective over his little sister, who is "crazy" but "amazing" and he hates anyone who can't get along with her and anyone who wants to be in his life has to get along with her and be nice to her and so on and he said last night that i'd really like her. i think he almost nearly said that we are similar. i think he wanted to imply that we were of the same energy clan.
but still where is the climax?
what do i even MEAN by climax??! ...i think what i want is to do something NEW with them and have even MORE fun together but also feel even MORE CLOSE until one day we can feel comfortable declaring: YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND to each other without shame or hesitation and we will feel so warm in each other's presence.
this lack of climax in friendship is really upsetting to me
tbh i think it's all because i've experienced it before and now i expect it.