things i will do when s is away for 10 days
- wake up without stress
- read
- write
- edit
- watch movies that he doesn't wanna watch that i'm curious about
- watch interviews & live performances on youtube
- sleep a lot
- drink a lot of hot tea
- drink warm soy milk
if only everyday could be like this
when he is here i sort of do my best to pretend like i'm doing something without having to work too hard
he is like a boss who doesn't pay in neither money nor compliments
my mom texted him today that someone commented on her IG saying "you're so pretty" or something cept they didn't mean her, they meant me
and she said that he ought to be nice to me bc of that
he said she's weird
i said she has a point
i think my mom is starting to realize that he is not deserving of me
i think my feud with his mom, on the other hand, is a subconscious test doubling as an exit strategy
my left wrist hurts and that makes me not want to use my phone anymore
this is good
i always take it as a good sign when my body breaks down at the slightest unhealthy behavior because i think the universe is conspiring for me to stay in tiptop shape to accomplish the life's mission it has planned for me (or that i planned myself and that it highly approved of, it was like "great idea let's make it happen") and it must be a really good thing