why do i whine about people anyway?
i am discovering a type of person who disgusts me and i am tempted to tell my friends about this (and they wouldn't be offended because NONE OF THEM act this way) but i think i should say it here instead because there is no context in my conversations for this type of whining
mainly i am disgusted by people who have such little self-esteem but so much ego that they will say things like
"i love virginia woolf"
WHICH IS FINE if that were the case but it isn't!!!!
it's not that everyone who "likes" virginia woolf must be a liar -- i believe that tokyochemist from youtube genuinely likes her -- but that some people...people who talk on a 1st grader level...seem to lack the verbal intelligence to understand woolf
(btw i don't like virginia woolf. i don't know if i have the brain cells for her or just detest her generally. i have never gathered enough patience to sit through her writing. i don't find her writing beautiful, contrary to popular opinion)
what business is it of mine that people are willing to waste their own time pretending to like things they don't, learning names of authors and book titles so they can impress people?
how about i stop wasting brain cells on those people?
i can't help but notice that they exist but i can look away. can't i?
or is there something to be explored here?
ok, one two three let's indulge in an exploration and talk about those people a little more
people who are like this:
xx's xxx from youtube... (i won't say real channel names bc that's rude)
he keeps saying "it's so good. it's so so good" about books -- that tells me nothing. and the way he writes it's like he believes the whole world is illiterate and that it is therefore ok to merely sound like he's talking about something. he puts on affectations and tries to sound literary but says nothing at all (i don't mean that he's pointlessly ranting; i mean even he doesn't know what he's saying because he is, in fact, NOT saying anything) and he actually believes that he has successfully pulled one over you
a girl i know -- she bought dante's inferno to prop it up in her room but does not know what it's about. she says of music "oh i've heard of that"
a boy i know -- when it comes to books, i believe he does read what he claims to read, because he has verbal intelligence. but when it comes to music, i do not believe that he enjoys what he claims to enjoy. like glenn gould. he's merely proud to display that he's heard of glenn gould.
i guess what i'm saying is:
(1) if you lack verbal intelligence, and do not love virginia woolf, do not say "i love virginia woolf" ...and do not try to sound more intelligent than you are because it will come out unintelligible -- just be at your damn level so you don't embarrass yourself or waste our time
(2) enjoy music! i get that reading is an expensive hobby (in terms of time and sometimes money) so i don't expect everyone to read, but music is practically free now and it takes no effort to enjoy. why not explore music and really enjoy it?
i don't like people who pretend to be more than they are
i don't like people who spend more time pretending than they do enjoying
ok are we done with the whining now? like can we move on?
or is there something else i want to say?
hmm well sometimes i like people even though they do pretend to be more than they are ; i like them in other ways
i still watch that guy on youtube because he entertains me and i also like the things he actually gets excited about (a tote bag, a beautiful book cover) and i like...reading him. and i don't think that deep down he's unlikable. he's just nauseatingly insecure
is it ok to enjoy people selectively? or do they impact the mind negatively?
side thought: i like myself a lot more whenever i notice myself gaining a new H superpower. i'm stoked about developing cognitive empathy.